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Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 4/5/1981
Gender: Male
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Expertise: Rocket Science
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
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Member Since:
2/21/2003
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| So yeah i wrote this for my girlfriend, but I think that it also applies to a lot of the people that might still actually use xanga haha. Anyway, I just thought I post it because, really, it's to all of you.... besides the mushy stuff which i'll try to edit out hahaha
Hi honey!
So, I just got done talking to ****** from my **** class. He's going
through issues, and has a pretty bleak outlook on life, and just is
depressed in general. We started talking. He says that I'm a
crazily optimistic person and have such a positive outlook on life.
Now, I never thought that as being true. Haha i think you would agree, i
can be very pessimistic at times, and can dip into depression every now
and again. But as we talked through why i am the way i am and then things
started to occur to me. If there was anytime in my life to be
depressed, i guess i should be depressed now. I mean look at my
circumstances:
1. i moved to a new city where i know absolutely nobody
2. my girlfriend, whom i love dearly, is in NC
3. my dog, whom i love dearly too, is with her
4. my parents made horrible financial decisions that can possibly
plunge me into financial disarray for the next seven years or more
5. i'm starting a new job at a new company and it's a hard adjustment
Yet, i'm generally happy. Why is that when i have so many things to be
depressed about. Well, one reason i think it's alright is that I've
moved to places before where i knew nobody and you always tend to make
friends eventually. I've also seen my parents go through financial
ruin before and there's always a way to fight back. Plus, what is
credit anyway but a made up number that will just make things harder,
yes, but not impossible. Credit will not kill me--i hope.
Then we started talking about my days at UCLA and i told him, "You know
what i was pretty miserable at UCLA during my first year or two there."
I told him how i had a problem finding people in LA that i liked and
were cool. I had to search and find a niche for myself and go to where
the kind of people i would want to meet were. Then suddenly it
happened and i met people that made life in LA bearable.
After that we went into how i approach life and how i think you need to
have little philosophies to live by. I gave him a short list of the
ones i try to live by:
1. I continually try to be a better person. Not so i can say i'm the
best person out there but because i really want to see what i can be,
what my potential really is.
2. What is a good friend? I think the kind of friend i want to be is
one that knows the dreams and wishes of my friends and try to always
remind them of where they want to be and either gently nudge them in
that directly or just kick them in the ass and ask what they're doing.
3. Refer to #1 because it covers everything: be the most awesome bf
ever, be an amazing son, be a the best friend of all your friends...
well try to be those haha That's the great thing about perfection you
can strive for it and never reach it so it's a great goal for life.
4. Just be honest. It just makes life so much easier, less complicated and less full of bullshit and drama.
So, ****** mentioned, "Man if i didn't know better i'd say you were
religious. It just seems like you have some kinda of faith in
something." I guess it can sound that way huh? But i think everyone
knows that i'm not religious at all. NOT AT ALL. It makes sense
though, i've always been around religion and religious people and maybe
that rubbed off? Really though, i think this stuff just comes from
experience and seeing a lot of the world at an early age. I've been to
vietnam and seen what being poor really is, and i know that no matter
how bad it gets here. In the eyes of those people I'm not poor at
all. I also try to take a walk every year, usually on my birthday and
try to take a look at my life and take stock of everything. I don't
know. Maybe i'm just freaking awesome! as Evan points out haha.
Then i came to a realization hon. Even with my awesome posse of
buddies from amp and the roommies it wasn't till **** mushy stuff****
thanks!
Anyway it's just a thanks to all my friends out there. You guys are all pretty awesome and i have AMAZING taste haha.
thai
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| I was looking Q's road trip map on maps.google.com and i noticed this tiny circle in canada... it's so wierd.
circle of death!
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| http://images.businessweek.com/ss/07/11/1116_bestplaces_kids/index_01.htm
So, both me and my sister found this at the exact same time. We grew up in Buffalo Grove #30 on the list. It was great. I loved it there. It was culturally diverse. The education was great and well come on, it produced ME! haha
thai
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| Yinner recently said that of all the things i do well, and there's so many haha, the only one i brag about is Cooking. I corrected her and let her know that I actually never brag about my cooking i just talk about what i cook because i get excited about it. But yeah i guess i am a little proud of my cooking. It's the only thing on this site i actually have pictures of and it really is the only hobby of mine that i take seriously.
Why though? I guess it is because of the challenge. When i really try my hardest I am a pretty good basketball, football, and golf player, and if i need to i will learn a song on guitar. But i think the key with cooking is that you can try your hardest and you might still make a big ole pile of crap. I've always been kind of a purest too. Thinking if it's not done the hard way then you're probably doing it the wrong way. Why else would i whittle a big chunk of wood into a shape of a little tree? ... besides the irony.
So yeah cooking for me is all about striving for perfection. That one perfect meal that everyone will think is amazing, but it's impossible. Everyone has different tastes and there's no possible way to get everyone to like one thing. Also, how can a piece of food be perfect? Food is really an abstract thing when you get down to it. The questions you ask yourself while cooking end up making no sense if you said them out loud: Would dill make this perfect? No, but rosemary would, wouldn't it? Should i braise this piece of meat for 4 hours or 5? It's all subjective huh? Man, isn't that thought of a perfect dish enticing though? Imagine if you did find it, you could invite people over and in a minute create something that they would consider the best they've ever had in their lives. It's an intoxicating thought for me, but i'm a people pleaser haha.
In the last two weeks i've made three versions of the same meal each time with a little tweak or change that most people would never notice.
So the current experiment:
Braised Short Rib with a Potato, Leek and horseradish puree and sauteed portabello mushrooms.
The mushrooms are amazing. I take a little olive oil and just a bit of butter and start the mushrooms then i add salt and pepper and a little bit of the juices i'm braising the beef in. Man i can eat those mushrooms all day.
The next experiment:
Soup.
A chicken and roasted fennel soup. Why? cuz i saw fennel at the store and thought, "what the heck i've never cooked this thing before."
That's it. To me Food is art haha.
Thai
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| new your strip with carmelized onions and garlic topped off with humboldt fog cheese
Chilean Sea Bas with a Leek, Potato and Red Pepper Puree on side a mixure of sauteed mushrooms that were cooked with the leeks and potatoes and red peppers and onions
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